that I have not posted in a while.
I was thinking that
Today, I'd like to start over
Just flip the pages and start all over again
See if I would make the same mistakes of old.
I would like to go back in time
And make right what I spoiled.
What I chose to ignore,
Douse with my attention.
I would like to go back
And say I am sorry even before wronging anyone;
The lover I hurt, I would console
Caress her gently while I fed her grapes.
Today is anew
at least I would like to think.
Today is a re-beginning of sorts
I know I should reignite the spell
that taught me love was real.
I shall be a fine husband someday
My dad was.
I shall make a great dad
My dad was.
I shall love my kids
My dad did.
And cherish my wife dearly
My dad did.
So I was thinking...
that I love you
Monday, September 25, 2006
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
...The Way You Make Me Feel
(dedicated to the lady from Massachusetts)
You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
Everytime we are together,
It seems like the perfect place,
And when I hold your hand,
I love the shimmer that lights up your face.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.
You make me feel special,
You make me feel new,
You make me feel loved,
With everything you do.
Everytime we are together,
It seems like the perfect place,
And when I hold your hand,
I love the shimmer that lights up your face.
I love the way you can make me laugh
For absolutely no reason at all.
I love how no matter what I do,
You will be there to catch me when I fall.
I just want you to know,
That even though we sometimes fight,
I will always love you!
No matter what, day or night.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
...9/11: 5 years after
On 9/11/01, I was laying in my bed in at Dryden Hall, Eastern Washington University in Cheney, WA when my mom called. It was about 9am Pacific. She instructed me to turn on the TV and to my dismay and utter horror, I was spell bound.
Two planes had hit the World Trade Center, another plane had flown into the Pentagon, and another, headed for the White House, had been wrestled to the fields of Pennsylvania. I have always believed this last plane had been shot down (reason why nothing was really ever recovered from it) but that is another story.
Today is exactly 5 years since this barbaric act of terrorism was waged on the US and most of the world and although it may seem dim to some people, watching the videos or many documentaries airing on TV this week has a sobering effect that adjectives fall short of depicting clearly.
When I watch the tapes of the events, especially the one that just aired this Sunday morning @ 9:30am on HBO, I remain glued to my sit with my fingers clenching down so hard on my seat that I can hear the fabric moan from the effect of the pressure exerted. It is only understandable that after such a horrendous act of war Bush et Co would want to go after Bin Laden, albeit that they have turned the tide and deviated from the mission at hand, to a war in Iraq, amongst other things.
Afghanistan
Although I never really understood why the Bush administration went after Afghanistan, I still think Saudi Arabia would have been a better stage to wage the war on terror. Nine of the hijackers were Saudis. Bin Laden himself is Saudi. Saudis are the proven supporters of terror. They hate US guts and have often been two-sided in their policies in support of the US.
But Bush and his administration made a case for Afghanistan and went with it. They targeted the Taliban, stating that he did nothing to eradicate Al-Qeada in his country. Hmm... come to think of it, the US had provided Bin Laden and his network (Al-Qeada) all the armor and might to fight of communism two score decades ago.
My comment is that they never actually cared if they caught Bin Laden. Bush had to make it look like he was doing something to fight terrorism so he could usher in his evil plan of taking over Iraq's oil.
Iraq
Bush may argue as much as they want and even offer as much bogus information as they want to justify their attack on Iraq, but it was totally uncalled for. My reason. It is very clear that invading Afghanistan was a great idea but that mission ought to have been completed before ever considering another target. Bin Laden had not yet been found but Bush really didn't care.
The United Nations and the G8 except for Britain asked Bush to hold off. But he won't listen.
The CIA offered intel revealing that Iraq had no connection to Al-Qeada but Bush still won't listen.
You actually already know all of this information but you chose to vote for him one more time.
Anyways, I would like to remind everyone that the effects of 9/11 are still very glaring, especially when you consider the actions of a C-grade student heading the greatest country in the World.
One fact that remains is that 3251 children now wake up and go about their day without their dad or mom.
3475 people from 83 different countries died on 9/11 from the WTC and Pentagon attacks.
Say a prayer for them when you have a minute.
Two planes had hit the World Trade Center, another plane had flown into the Pentagon, and another, headed for the White House, had been wrestled to the fields of Pennsylvania. I have always believed this last plane had been shot down (reason why nothing was really ever recovered from it) but that is another story.
Today is exactly 5 years since this barbaric act of terrorism was waged on the US and most of the world and although it may seem dim to some people, watching the videos or many documentaries airing on TV this week has a sobering effect that adjectives fall short of depicting clearly.
When I watch the tapes of the events, especially the one that just aired this Sunday morning @ 9:30am on HBO, I remain glued to my sit with my fingers clenching down so hard on my seat that I can hear the fabric moan from the effect of the pressure exerted. It is only understandable that after such a horrendous act of war Bush et Co would want to go after Bin Laden, albeit that they have turned the tide and deviated from the mission at hand, to a war in Iraq, amongst other things.
Afghanistan
Although I never really understood why the Bush administration went after Afghanistan, I still think Saudi Arabia would have been a better stage to wage the war on terror. Nine of the hijackers were Saudis. Bin Laden himself is Saudi. Saudis are the proven supporters of terror. They hate US guts and have often been two-sided in their policies in support of the US.
But Bush and his administration made a case for Afghanistan and went with it. They targeted the Taliban, stating that he did nothing to eradicate Al-Qeada in his country. Hmm... come to think of it, the US had provided Bin Laden and his network (Al-Qeada) all the armor and might to fight of communism two score decades ago.
My comment is that they never actually cared if they caught Bin Laden. Bush had to make it look like he was doing something to fight terrorism so he could usher in his evil plan of taking over Iraq's oil.
Iraq
Bush may argue as much as they want and even offer as much bogus information as they want to justify their attack on Iraq, but it was totally uncalled for. My reason. It is very clear that invading Afghanistan was a great idea but that mission ought to have been completed before ever considering another target. Bin Laden had not yet been found but Bush really didn't care.
The United Nations and the G8 except for Britain asked Bush to hold off. But he won't listen.
The CIA offered intel revealing that Iraq had no connection to Al-Qeada but Bush still won't listen.
You actually already know all of this information but you chose to vote for him one more time.
Anyways, I would like to remind everyone that the effects of 9/11 are still very glaring, especially when you consider the actions of a C-grade student heading the greatest country in the World.
One fact that remains is that 3251 children now wake up and go about their day without their dad or mom.
3475 people from 83 different countries died on 9/11 from the WTC and Pentagon attacks.
Say a prayer for them when you have a minute.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
...So My Birthday was Yesterday!
I would have preferred to post something else but for the randomness, I will just let my fingers run.
Yesterday, September 6th, I was officially a year older and a year closer to my grave. After all my years on earth, I have come to realise that:
1. I have never had my car keyed by an angry ex. Guess I just never dated one crazy enough or maybe my car is already messed up so much that it would hurt their key, were they to try it.
2. If you are what you eat, then I am fast, greasy and cheap, but sometimes sophisticated, exquisite, expensive and quite stuck up.
3. I have never had any awkward looking purple pimples or sores grow on my manhood.
4. I am very good looking and 99% of the people I know and meet daily will second this motion. Seriously though, I look beautiful!
5. I abhor all books that start with 101 ways ..., 101 things..., and all in the category
6. Paris is probably the most beautiful city in the world and Seattle is probably the most beautiful city in the US. Dubai would probably be in my list but for the many robes the dudes wear!
7. Investing in Africa today is probably the smartest thing to do.
8. I will actually take a bullet for the One I love.
9. I am easily amused.
10. I fantasize about winning the lottery but I never play.
11. I like to plan almost everything except what comes out of my mouth during an argument.
12. I love Fox TV shows
13. Koffi Annan is probably the most multilingual person I know
14. It is OK for men and women to talk all day as long as it costs $4 for the first minute and $1 every minute after that.
15. I really would think twice about going to heaven if they had no soccer.
16. The Redskins will not make it to the playoffs this year.
17. I think pain is another way of knowing that you are still alive and that life still sucks.
18. I still don't get the bleeping effect on TV. FCC should be shut down!
19. I love God
20. I am going to be a millionaire!
Yesterday, September 6th, I was officially a year older and a year closer to my grave. After all my years on earth, I have come to realise that:
1. I have never had my car keyed by an angry ex. Guess I just never dated one crazy enough or maybe my car is already messed up so much that it would hurt their key, were they to try it.
2. If you are what you eat, then I am fast, greasy and cheap, but sometimes sophisticated, exquisite, expensive and quite stuck up.
3. I have never had any awkward looking purple pimples or sores grow on my manhood.
4. I am very good looking and 99% of the people I know and meet daily will second this motion. Seriously though, I look beautiful!
5. I abhor all books that start with 101 ways ..., 101 things..., and all in the category
6. Paris is probably the most beautiful city in the world and Seattle is probably the most beautiful city in the US. Dubai would probably be in my list but for the many robes the dudes wear!
7. Investing in Africa today is probably the smartest thing to do.
8. I will actually take a bullet for the One I love.
9. I am easily amused.
10. I fantasize about winning the lottery but I never play.
11. I like to plan almost everything except what comes out of my mouth during an argument.
12. I love Fox TV shows
13. Koffi Annan is probably the most multilingual person I know
14. It is OK for men and women to talk all day as long as it costs $4 for the first minute and $1 every minute after that.
15. I really would think twice about going to heaven if they had no soccer.
16. The Redskins will not make it to the playoffs this year.
17. I think pain is another way of knowing that you are still alive and that life still sucks.
18. I still don't get the bleeping effect on TV. FCC should be shut down!
19. I love God
20. I am going to be a millionaire!
Sunday, September 03, 2006
...What is your greatest fear?
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Marianne Williamson, in her book, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles. Quoted by Nelson Mandela on the day of his inauguration in 1994 and also recently used in the movie, Coach Carter.
I will be a year older this September 6th, and to tell you frankly, I don't know whether the next year will be much different from the past two score and more years I have been on earth, and that tears me up. I don't know what to expect. Something I have wanted so bad in the past three or so years is soon going to become reality and I think I may not be ready yet! It sucks and I wonder whether I would have actually accomplished anything when this becomes reality.
I am afraid. Very afraid.
Fear what the world has in store for me.
More so confused.
The confusion you feel
when you simply can't understand why.
Why things are the way they are.
Why you do certain things.
Why you say those things.
I am frustrated.
Frustration
because I have been patient enough
3 years and still no response.
6 years and still no major 'accomplishments'
I am disappointed.
Disappointed in myself
For the things I have done and said.
No wait, I feel responsible.
Accept responsibility
For the things I have said and done.
I hardly regret anything,
And carry with me lessons learnt.
I wait unerringly
For a chance to pass on the little I know
The unbridled yearning to start my own family
To be the solution
to all of my mother's problems
to all of my family's tribulations
I will work harder
And reach my target
I will not forget God.
I will pray
For guidance.
Cherish his love and mercy
Hope that I get there in time.
Marianne Williamson, in her book, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles. Quoted by Nelson Mandela on the day of his inauguration in 1994 and also recently used in the movie, Coach Carter.
I will be a year older this September 6th, and to tell you frankly, I don't know whether the next year will be much different from the past two score and more years I have been on earth, and that tears me up. I don't know what to expect. Something I have wanted so bad in the past three or so years is soon going to become reality and I think I may not be ready yet! It sucks and I wonder whether I would have actually accomplished anything when this becomes reality.
I am afraid. Very afraid.
Fear what the world has in store for me.
More so confused.
The confusion you feel
when you simply can't understand why.
Why things are the way they are.
Why you do certain things.
Why you say those things.
I am afraid. Very Afraid
that I have many more obstacles
to overcome.
I am afraid
that I may be overwhelmed
And forced to pull over.
I am afraid. Very Afraid.
I am frustrated.
Frustration
because I have been patient enough
3 years and still no response.
6 years and still no major 'accomplishments'
I am disappointed.
Disappointed in myself
For the things I have done and said.
No wait, I feel responsible.
Accept responsibility
For the things I have said and done.
I hardly regret anything,
And carry with me lessons learnt.
I wait unerringly
For a chance to pass on the little I know
The unbridled yearning to start my own family
To be the solution
to all of my mother's problems
to all of my family's tribulations
I will work harder
And reach my target
I will not forget God.
I will pray
For guidance.
Cherish his love and mercy
Hope that I get there in time.
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